Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.” ― Dr. Seuss

I can't stand it.

This post is just me ranting, complaining, whining or whatever you may call. I'm just super duper unhappy at work and unhappy at school.

If you guys are wondering I'm actually working or studying right now? The answer is "Both". Right now I'm working full time and studying part-time for my nail's course. So which shall we start? Probably start from my school first since its not that much.

Nail's School

I started my course during March. Starting I was happy-go-lucky since I got to make new friends and chit-chat and everything lar. So after 2 - 3 lesson, I got drifted apart. Cause I end work at 6pm. Sometimes about 6.15pm. Class start at 6.30pm but lesson only started around 6.45pm - 7pm. There's this new lady came. She sat at the row where I was suppose to be at. And because she sat there, there's no space for me and I have to sit another row ALONE! Okay. Nevermind. Since I thought probably she's just coming today only.

BUT! It's not only that there. Its for the whole module. And I have to be ALONE throughout the whole module. Suppose to work in pairs, but she came, there will be a odd number. And that's me! The odd what. Why didn't I be friends with the row that I sat is because the whole row of people are taking full-time course and they are already friends for quite some time. So I feels really weird to just barge in like this. But this is not the only thing that I'm facing.

My classmate ask me to be her model for her exam because she couldn't find anyone. Plus our exam's date are different. But then she will let me know if she found anyone or not. I agreed but my nails are short at that time. And I really think my nails grew pretty fast. But the night before the exam, she tell me to meet tomorrow what time but when I look at my nails, still quite short but I think still can make it.

I went for her exam, but once she saw my nails. She keep complaining. But I say its okay one lar. Shouldn't be a problem. So throughout the exam, she keep shaking her head, sighing like as if this is my fault! Okay. I admit partly is my fault lar. After the exam is finish, she keep complaining say she didn't did a great job. Never clean finish and blah blah blah. I apologize to her but she just don't take in.

I left since she still had her theory exam. I went home and she come and text me saying like ALL IS MY FAULT. WTFFFFFFF~ She just ask me straight to look for another model cause she thinks her nails also can't as 1 of the finger nails had to cut short. And then she continue her complaining. I say sorry to her, explain, apologize and everything! And till today, she see me like as though I'm a enemy to her. Talk to her, she gave me those not happy tone. Seriously is WTF. You got so small gas a not? My exam did worse than you and I'm not even that what. Fuck up people. What kind of teacher are you when you are not even forgiving? Seriously lor.

Work

Started working in this company during last year of mid Oct. Starting was still okay. Until this aunty working for the export sales come and disturb me. I'm actually working in a logistics department. But I'm actually more like working as admin than logistics.

Okay. The story is like this. There's self collection at the front. She pass me 1 of them and after awhile, she pass me another one. So I call my another colleague (who she dote on) to help me do. And then when I stand up, she had that look on her face like say "I pass you then you pass to her. You cannot do yourself? Irritating" that LOOK! It's like saying its my fault lar! So she's able to ask me do and when I ask her do, cannot? WTH. From then on, we just see each other very not happy.

Another colleague which is indoor sales. He always have this "Everyday" customer which comes and collect everyday. And his orders, most of the time is quite alot. And he DOESN'T HELP! Out of 10 times, he only help once. WTF? Nevermind. So when his other customers came, he sometimes will call me and say this blah blah blah came. I say okay and ask him to take the stocks. So when I print out the invoice and everything, I still see him at the desk. Waiting for me to take. WTF? Your own customer cannot help? I already help you do most of the customers, and you can't even help for just a few? You busy and then I'm not? Seriously! Very ridiculous. He is always taking me for advantage. Why am I saying this. Is cause if I'm not around or what, he ask the other logistics, he will AUTO wait for the invoice and settle his customers. Then what about me? Fuck it.

Another issue is the company. Eg, last 2-3 weeks ago, the PSI for the haze almost 500. We were suppose to work alternate saturdays. And that saturday we are working. So the manager went to ask our big boss if we can get off for that saturday. Boss say okay. But have to deduct from leave. So tell me, is this even consider off? Not 1 time but already 3-4 times inclusive of that ever since I came into the company. My leave ain't that many. I went for taiwan, short-trip holiday already not much of leave left. So now keep deduct, then how am I going to have enough? My boy was extremely angry about this. He was saying that my company have no rights to touch our leave. Off if off. Leave is leave. No way can this be put together. Even ask quite some of his friends & colleagues, all say cannot like this. Sigh~

Another issue which is my department. Lunch time, logistics most of the time will ask someone to tabao (Takeaway). I'm the one that went out to have lunch most. So recently, she call someone to tabao, ask everyone except for me. WTH? I go tabao, I always ask them if they want. So now she can't ask me? Seriously. WTF.

My work load. I've got nothing to do nowadays. I'm trying to dig out things to do since I settled everything before July comes. I seriously think that I'm not learning. I feel that I'm just a dustbin, everyone don't want to do it, it is me who is doing it. My work load is sooo simple. Credit Note, filing, settle some self-collection (Bluff. I'm doing most of it), key in stock in for some products, do local delivery if the person is not in, online sales & other rubbish. So tell me, what am I actually learning?

I've been controlling myself not to hand up my letter since I haven't work even 1 year. Everyone has been telling me to tolerate, finish the 1 year, get the 13 months bonus then quit. But then my heart really wants to quite now. BUT there will be no income. Sigh~ Can anyone tell me what to do? So stress up. Every hour, there's an urge to quit but I am always convincing myself NOT TO. But I will have to tolerate till this year is over. And that means 5 more months to go! ): T.T

I shall end this long post.

Cheers,

Jessalyn

Labels: Complaining, Ranting, Whining

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